my 2007 new year resolution - IS TO BE HAPPY.

maybe i search too hard for happiness.
maybe i pin my hopes to high and i forgot what is happiness.
maybe i am too pressurized to try to be happy.
and in the end i get disappointed.
i will try to lower it then.
and maybe i will be happier this way.

{9:32 AM}

i want to let go of eveything and lead my own life
i am so tired.
once and again, i am being let down.
i find it so hard..
so hard for any simple thing to happen.
its just a fucking game.
so everyone get played ok.
no strings attached.
so pissed with eveything
because of you.

{1:34 PM}

i am tired.
i am s0o tired.

i need a break.
i want to be away.

i want to be away from the hassle
i want to go travelling.

i want my life back.
i want to be a normal 19 year old.

had been so uptight with work.
and kinda emotional very easily.

i had been really down.
things are just very blurry.

everything i do, i have to rush.
i need to slow down my pace and take a breather.

it has been so hard to be happy.
i forgot what it was like to laugh out loud.

my best therapy - shopping.
i dont have where the money went, all i know is they went out of my account.

my second best therapy - emo songs after songs after songs.
give me a stupid excuse to cry over i dont know what.

my third therapy - get a very different haircut!
try something different with fascinating colours!

i want to smile genuinely, from the bottom of my heart.
i want to love and be loved wholeheartedly.

i want a life filled with love and happniess.
i want myself to be cheerful and stressful.

i guess thats my christmas list.
i dont need anything material, practical or whatsoever.

{10:39 PM}

i have to blog this!
i was flagging for cab after work
so i just flagged direct outside my office for abt 15 mins
then went over to padang
then to raffles hotel
then to raffles place
and finally to peninsula plaza.
for that one hour, either the queue is damn long or they are hired or on call or those stupid empty cabs refuse to stop.
whenever you want to take cab there is none around.
i was so desperate i was about to go to zouk for the 50 gorgeous people party and go home after that.
i bet they are at least 5 empty cabs outside clark quay, MOS, ZOUK, MOMO waiting for passengers.
the queue at peninsula plaza was the shortest but still there are abt 10 people in front of me.
called for a cab there but had to wait for about 15 mins.

UNTIL one min later..
one cab driver with sorethroat was moving along the queue and asking ANYBODY GOING TO QUEENSTOWN?
DAMN STUNNED.
THE FEELING WAS LIKE I WON THE 6 MILLION TOTO.
i was waving my hand and ME ME!
and arrogantly pushed my way past the people in front of me.
FUCKING PRICELESS.
i am always going to remember that moment.

i feel so good just posting it here.
haha
now i am going to buy that cab's car plate number. =)

CHEERS!

{10:37 AM}

playing hard to get doesn't have to be bad.
it might be so not give you the wrong idea.
not to mislead you.

don't be disheartened.
there's alwaes a rainbow after the rain. YEAH!

i need retail therapy.
i want to spend money.
because.. i also dunno..
or manybe a get away holiday,
i need a break..seriously..
away from the rush..

christmas is nearing. =)
i hope christmas is going to be fun.
but i have no idea what i am doing..

people out there!
if you know when is the zara sale, please sms or email or call or tag me!
your info is very much appreciated!

and i am setting up an online store.
so stay tuned!
LOVE! =D

{11:47 PM}